Another shot from aforementioned photoshoot with Jessica. I love the intensity of this one. <3

I did a photoshoot with my friend the other day and I love some of the pictures that I took. They turned out great. This is one from the shoot. She was just turning to put her other shoes on and I was like WOAH. HOLD IT RIGHT THERE.
Yes, and this was the outcome. <3

Life is a cruel and horrible, horrible thing.

My parents fucking aggravate me. Have parents never heard of mistakes? Coincidences? ANYTHING?!?!?!

So I take a shower, and I'm going to put my dirty laundry in the basket, so I open the closet door, on the way shut, for some bizarre reason, the door falls off the hinges. Now, say my mom had been the next one to open/close the door. It would have been her. and no one would get mad.

Next I go to open the fridge and the MILK FALLS OUT AND SPILLS ALL OVER THE FLOOR. Don't you think it's the person who put the milk back in the fridge's fault? And since I don't drink milk, it clearly wasn't my fault. If my mom had been the one to open that fridge in the morning to make lunches, the milk STILL WOULD HAVE FALLEN OUT. But no one would have been mad, cause it wasn't me.

So now I can't do anything right and I'm useless and my parents are pissed at me.
Over a couple coincidences. I love life.

So for the past week or so I've had this canker in my mouth. Like one of those white open sore ulcer thingers that swell and are EXTREMELY ouchy. Well, the pain was immense today, so I wanted to try and fix it after school.

I did the following stupid and then smart things:
1. You know how salt water is supposed to help things like that? I decided I didn't want the salt diluted, so I just poured salt on it. Wanna talk about pain? Yeah. Try it. I recommend it.
2. I proceeded that by sticking my face under the tap to wash it off.
3. I put hydrogen peroxide on it.
4. That wasn't enough, so I put more salt WATER (this time I diluted it) on it.
5. I sat for a while, decided to surf the net for solutions.
6. Finally found something: baking soda and water!!
7. IT WORKS! IT TAKES THE PAIN AWAY AND IS SUPPOSED TO HEAL WITHIN A DAY IF PUT ON FREQUENTLY!!
8. It tastes nasty.


Does anyone wanna trade spots with me? Allie? Ev? Either of you? I need somewhere far away. I just don't wanna be here anymore. lulz.

All for now, folks.

I should write in here more. I probably don't because there are two people who read this. Similarly to how there is only one person who sees my icon comm too. Oh well.

I think I have a headache every day of my life. Not just little annoying ones. Honestly dehabilitating ones. I don't care if that's not a word.

Yesterday, I went shopping. I got 4 new shirts + 3 tank tops, 2 pairs of shorts, a clutch for prom, and a pretttyyy necklace that I can't stop wearing because I love it so much. I'll take pictures and post another time, because I should probably post that on Bloop too. But haven't yet.

Speaking of Bloop, people annoy me over there. It's kinda silly, but I'm running a LIMS diary with a friend on Bloop. We ask that people a) vote for their least favourite icon and give constructive criticism to that maker and b) vote for their favourite.
The problem here is most people give shitty constructive criticism, have no idea what they're voting for, or just suck. The worst icon last week did get voted out, but in the meantime had two POSITIVE votes. It was hideous. I don't know how anyone could have liked it. And somebody we know on Bloop said something along the lines of "It's a shame that one got voted off, it was so nice!" NO IT WASN'T. But it's okay, because this person doesn't have a fucking creative bone in their whole body even though they think so.
( more about this... )

I think that's all I have to say for this. Just a little update to keep this updated.

I got a new layout. I actually like this one. I've had about 4 in the past week. But this one, I actually like. It's from mintyapple
Thanks. =)

It's not like I don't love Zooey Deschanel enough, but I fell even more in love with her when I was informed that she sings as well. Then I heard it.

( zooey ♥ )

hai guys.


i know. lame. but i've never seen the dragon hatched from the stone-looking egg!

well. im bored. and i'm hungry. school is boring. life is boring. blahblahblah

Completely useless.

Maybe I won't make it as useless.

I have finally sat through David Cook's CD and decide I love it.

I love "Lie" and "Permanent." =D
Anyway.

Purpose of this pointless entry (paradox?):

Click them. =)

God, you should know by now that I only ever post when it's useless!



Click it. =)

My new kitty

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Decided to steal this meme from my bb, staticmonkey. :)

Step 1: Put your music player on shuffle.
Step 2: Post the first line from the first 25 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing.
Step 3: Strike through the songs when someone guesses both artist and song correctly.
Multiple answers are allowed and encouraged!
Step 4: Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is CHEATING.
Look on Google all you want, some of these are HARD.
Step 5: If you like the game, post your own.

1. you wait, wanting this world to let you in
2. there is no future, there is no past, thank god this moment's not the last
3. when i'm walking beside her, people tell me i'm lucky
4. dear sir or madame, will you read my book?
5. on the ground i lay, motionless in pain
6. she had blue eyes, the colour of amerillo skies of summer
7. my jaw hit the floor the day you walked in
8. imagine there's no heaven
9. got a black magic woman
10. boy, you're gonna carry that weight
11. she was sittin' in a bar in LAX
12. when i find myself in times of trouble, mother mary comes to me
13. nobody knows it, but you've got a secret smile
14. sweet like a kiss, sharp like a razor blade
15. if i am silent then i am not real
16. well you think you're so clever
17. i'm a rolling thunder, a pouring rain, i'm coming on like a hurricane
18. woke up this morning with this pain inside my heart
19. unsure of yourself, you stand alright and now
20. this is my december
21. you tell me you don't love me over a cup of coffee
22. i'm walking a wire, it feels like a thousand ways i could fall
23. there's another world inside of me that you may never see
24. love hurts, love scars, love wounds and marks
25. in the middle of the net, head on my pillow

I just want to write away from the publicity of my friends on Bloop, away from all the real life people whom I have been trying to help this week, from my boyfriend, from everyone.

I just want to write somewhere where I don't matter, and I've decided that this is the best location.

I am inclined to help people, okay? And most of the time, I see nothing wrong with that. In fact, even through all the times I complained about it this week, I didn't mind doing it. Plus, I am PMSing, and despite what boys want to think, this is not an "excuse." It's a real thing that happens to females everywhere once a month. It's when our hormones go crazy and we're not in our right mind. Our emotions get the best of us, we get cravings, we feel shitty for no reason, but we don't expect anyone to HEAL us. We don't expect sympathy because here's the thing - we're USED TO IT.
So fuck right off what "that excuse works."

Furthermore, I am ALLOWED to be upset that my boyfriend is going away this weekend for a basketball tournament and that I don't get to see him, and he will probably forget to call. I'm ALLOWED. It's one of those things girlfriends are allowed to do. I don't care how long he's going away for (2 days), I am still allowed to be upset. Especially when I'm PMSing. Do not downplay it. I do not want it downplayed. I am satisfied being upset about it and I will persist. Especially when I have not made a big deal about it to him when I usually do - when I've sad that I'm going to have a crappy weekend once or twice on one occasion, when I have laid no further guilt trips. And when I promise that I won't talk/complain about it anymore, I do so grudgingly. Because as a female, as a girlfriend, as someone who wants to be by his side, I am not only upset that I wont get to see him, but I WANT to talk about it, to make myself feel better.
I am not going to see him, and I have to spend my weekend working on my seminar and studying for exams. I am going to have a shitty weekend.

"The truth is, I'm mentally preparing myself."
"For what?"
"You"
^^^ it hurts to hear. Stop saying it. You shouldn't have to mentally prepare yourself for when I'm PMSing, you should let me be and move on when it's done. You make me feel guilty. You make me feel guilty for being a female, you make me feel guilty for not putting complete attention on you, and you MAKE ME FEEL GUILTY FOR TRYING TO HELP OTHER PEOPLE THIS WEEK.

I just wanted my probably last half hour with you until Monday to be nice. Instead we talked about other people, argued, got angry at each other, and then didn't talk. I don't like it. I wish it had been a better parting for the weekend, but I guess I have to live with that.Because I will almost most definitely not be seeing you in the morning.

I've got a song on repeat, I'm crying, and I feel shitty.

And that's my tune for now. And that's all I want right now, so don't push me any further.

AWESOME PICTURES WHICH I HAVE TAKEN.
I've been more into photography lately. If ya love meh, check them out bbs.
80 elm

grow northward

this afternoon in the city

secret smile

lost

hide away amongst the weeds

pollinate me

My boyfriend took this, and I'mmm gonna spam it everywhere, causeee I love it.


Play On Shadow by ~master-beaver on deviantART

I cannot wait until Bloop comes back - diaries restored or not.
I need somewhere to write. TDS seems like it'll be pretty decent too. But, of course ODS is ze devil. xD
But seriously, I vant mah Bloop back.

I bet I have a list of things to write now.
( maybe? )

Goddamn I need Bloop back. Bloop is my voice of reasoning when all others are silent. It's the way to get out everything that's crammed into my head, and without it, I can't eat, I can't sleep, I can't stay happy. You never know how much you depend on an outlet until it's gone, I guess.

Well! I'm starting to feel better. It's a good feeling.
The symptoms are going down, the throat infection and ear infection are gone.
I'm still contagious, though... and it's still depressing me. But I'm gonna just try and accept it and deal with it.
( love is crazy, pretty baby )

I'M LIVING, I SWEAR.
Just, I have mono. And I've had a throat infection + ear infection for the week.
And I have my period.

But today is a good day, you know why? Because my ear is getting better. And my throat is a lot better. I got all my homework done by 8:30. And my only symptom of mono tonight is the tiredness, which honestly, I'll deal with because I can't avoid it.

Now I've got the weekend to do homework and study. HURRAY?

Uhyeah. Hi.

( HAI-ALLIE. LOOK HEER PLZKTHX, BB. )